I drove again with dad today. We talked about mom but it didn’t get heated, surprisingly. I drove through traffic, in school zones and sped up and down country roads in the rain. That was a first for me. Again I was surprised. I figured that the thought of a slick road would really freak me out. I must be growing up.

He told me to merge onto the highway and in true Jordie fashion, I declined. Not so politely. “Pardon meeeee!? You want me to go a hundred!? NO THANKS.” We drove around some more, talking, until I was brave enough to try. I hyperventilated as we hugged the curve of the on-ramp. He told me to speed up. “Get to 100 - there’s no one beside you, you can go!” I did, and it was much easier than I thought. On a busy highway though? Might be a tad more scary..

After about fifteen minutes, I exited off the highway. It was a scary first but really not so bad. Like driving.. I never thought I’d be able to drive so well. I can though. I’m even getting addicted. I didn’t think I wanted a car but I’m starting to crave that unfamiliar freedom. As I told my lovely ladies earlier, I just can’t fathom taking a day off of work to get across town on transit for an appointment.

Anyways, driving is going good. My test is coming quickly and I’m really trying not to let myself panic. I’ll pass. And if I don’t, I’ll take the test again. I have to learn that I don’t have to be perfect at everything - I can fail. It’s cool. I’ll just pick myself back up and try again.

We stopped by the cemetery where my mom’s mother is buried. I’ve never visited my grammie there, mom always said it was too hard to go. I understand. I’ve always wanted to go and today my dad directed me there; I was happily surprised. Once we found her headstone, I knelt down and ran my fingers over the cold metal. “I’ll see you in the morning,” was etched on it. Something she and her last boyfriend said to each other often, so I hear. She died when I was 4, of lung cancer. From what I hear, she was a character. A real confident, loud, funny.. bitch. She sounds fierce - I like it.

So, lots of firsts today. First time driving on the highway. First time visiting grammie. First time driving in the rain. First time backing up and not completely screwing it up. Not really the first time, but close. I’m really starting to like firsts. Trying new things can be fun and satisfy my curiosity for a lot of things. I think I’m hooked.

- First day of internship.
- Writing for Techi - check it out.
- Sunny, warm days recently. Giddy for spring.
- Birthday in 2 and a half days. 27, bring it on!
- Warm, gorgeous Friday. Barn to take pictures. Trail Eatery for a lunch on the patio.
- Saturday in Toronto @ the Delta Chelsea Hotel. Late Christmas/Birthday/Graduation present from RB.
- Specially requested feather pillows. Private balcony. Indigestion for hours, but it was worth it. Ate here & here. And here, maybe twice. Maybe not. Okay well, it was twice for me but once for RB. If you’ve ever had it - you’ll understand. If not, TRY IT. Steph showed me the Marble Slab ways & I’m hooked.
- RB = the best boyfriend ever. Walked all around, going in any shop I wanted and didn’t complain once. He actually had fun through it all and that made me feel fabulous. He bought me this & a super cute mug too.. gotta love him. I fell in love with him all over again, this weekend. It happens a lot. I’ll take pictures of my treasures later. Sorry to interrupt with the sappy stuff.
- Purple tights from Urban Outfitters.
- Nice drives on Lakeshore with the windows down. Lunch in Port Credit.
- Easter dinner with RB’s family. Pictures of his cousins. Sitting out back, talking.
- Loving that today is gorgeous and wish RB was home earlier to enjoy it.
- Drooling over the giveaway going on over at my adorable friend Brandi’s blog - check it out, seriously. I’ve been searching Etsy.com for cross stitch kits & have never found any that are anywhere near as cute as these! I’d love to win but if not, I’m buying one anyways.
- Job interview tomorrow at noon. Wish me luck?

I have one more paper to write. The last one and then it’s over. I think I’m putting it off on purpose, so I can hold onto it all for just a little longer. Tomorrow is going to be insanely bittersweet.

You won’t get some of this stuff but I have to remember it all while it’s fresh in my head..

Final college exam. Reverting back to editing class on said exam. Last layout for the SOL. Chaos in the newsroom. I’ll miss that most. Lunch with some of the greatest people I’ve ever met. Pictures with Kathy. Champagne and an amazingly heartfelt toast. Tears welling. Burton being a champ and eating a ton of food. Walmart with Steph for balloons, jello and window markers. Pranking Nathan. The giddy butterflies I have to hear of his reaction. JSchoolWannabe. Enough said.

I’m dreading tomorrow but on the other hand, I can’t wait. There will be tears. Lots of hugs. I’m so thankful for the Internet because if I couldn’t keep in .. constant contact with a lot of people I’ve met over these past two years.. I’d go a little crazy.

I better get to that paper.. or ..maybe I’ll just hold off for a little longer.